Sunday, February 22, 2015

An Unknown Future

It's so strange to me how we can oftentimes fret about the BIG things and remain completely unaware that nothing is guaranteed.  Not even our next breath.

<>< Psalm 144:4
"Man is like a breath; his days are like a passing shadow."

I have been wondering what God has in store for me as I will be leaving, "Lord Willing" at the end of this year.  I would love to be a substitute school teacher or youth counselor.  It would be my greatest joy to help in the life of a little one, full of wonder and so eager to be molded and influenced. 

Nothing against adults, but after 25 years of law enforcement, I am so ready to be around little hearts with whom I can shape, encourage and instill the kindness of Christ.  I won't do it with boldness, but with subtlety as I interact in their presence and pray in private for their lives and their futures.

It will also give me an opportunity to love on those who are lacking love at home.  I will so enjoy hugging the students and making whatever provisions that God will allow me to, without crossing any boundaries.

I have a servant's heart and oftentimes, I do not feel that need is great in my current field.  Yes, I have met some pretty amazing people and I have created and built lasting friendships, but meeting the need for the community and residents are moreso reached by the first responders.

My heart's longing is really for the seniors and the youth.  I love the senior friendships that I have made in my lifetime and I pray that one day, when I am too old to move about or come and go as I please, that some young woman would come alongside me and sit and talk for awhile; or even run a few errands for me :-)

I love that I am not the selfish, controlling and even fearful person that I once was, and that Christ has given me a new heart.  A heart that sees the need, hears the need and longs to meet the need.  He has given me way more blessings than I deserve and He has carried me this far for a reason. And that reason is to pay it forward.  To be His light and tell others about His goodness!

Although I have plans and dreams for myself, I do trust that His way is far greater than anything that I could want for myself.  As I do not know where I will live in the future, nor do I know where I will work....#BUT I know a God who is faithful to walk beside me and hold my hand.

<>< Proverbs 16:9
"In their hearts humans plan their course, but the LORD establishes their steps."

If He's going to establish our steps, that means that He's already got a plan in place and He's also going to join us in our journey!

I'm so ready and so excited!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!