Sunday, January 11, 2009

I am mentally exhausted already...

Unlike most people, my week begins on Sundays. This is usually a great day for me because all of the important people are off and I can catch up on my work, listen to the gospel and have some peace through out the day. Not that criminals don't commit crimes on Sundays but oftentimes we get very few calls. As a matter of fact we just received a robbery call that turned out to be a simple assault. (For us cops, it's not as serious as it sounds) However, it's still a crime.

Anyway yesterday my boss called me at home, which is never a good sign. He wanted to inform me that he will be transferring and I will be in charge indefinitely. I have to admit as a new Christian, I was mad. I vented and complained, not to him of course but after I got off the phone. I called as many people as I could and went on and on and on.

Although my inner voice was telling me that God is using me for something bigger than myself, I tried to shut her up. It didn't work. She began to pray and relax and even laughed about it. I must say that having faith in the Lord and having my armor (the gospel) at my reach has made my life so much different than it was a year ago. This job is stressful, unpredictable and thankless but as long as I remember who my real boss is, my inner self is a lot more forgiving to my outer self when she goes off on one of her tantrums.

3 comments:

Thy Word Is A Lamp Unto My Feet said...

You want to have a fit but God wants to calm you down. These are moments for which we are eternally grateful.

You are where He wants you to be (I know sometimes it's not what we want to hear) but when we invited Him to take control - we surrendered our all because we were bought with a price.

You are in my prayers dear one.

Good night.

Myriam

Shanita Waters said...

Well Sista, to whom much is given, much is required. It's funny how things justbegin to fall on our laps that seem like they are more of a responsibility then a gift when we begin to follow Christ. I'm glad that your inner voice was able to realize that this is a Divine Appointment. Go with the flow and allow Him to use you.

I will pray for you that God continues to order your steps, give you more wisdom, more power and more grace.

Blessings!
Shanita

A Free Spirit Butterfly said...

Hey Myriam, thank your for your prayers and especially for your word "surrender." Joel Osteen's message yesterday was so for me. He was talking about how God wants you come "outside" your comfort zone. So now I embrace me new assignment. Thanks again.

Ms. Shanita, I want to thank you for your word "gift." To be honest, I wasn't really participating in areas that I should have been at work. Mentally I was in a funk and trying to play catch up. Now God is giving me a chance to prove that I'm capable of what he knows I'm capbale of. I won't let him down.

Thanks again,
The butterfly